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christmas wish list

2009-11-19T02:41:00.000-08:00

every year around the month of november, i will write down a list of things that i wish i can get for christmas.

this year i totally forgot about it until bf pointed out that my list is "not out yet"

so here's the list dear (think you are gonna freak out :P)

1. vintage reeboks from rockstar
2. smthg from tiffany
3. TV for our rooms (pray hard i will get this during the company party lucky draw / D&D
4. hangbag (no need to be branded though)
5. new hp??

but since you have got me the bracelet i want (and i told you to wrap it up for me so that i can open it on christmas day), the above are just "extras" and you can use it for my birthday instead - just in case i forget about my wish list again :) :)

what makes me happy when i am down :)

2009-11-04T19:23:00.000-08:00

"God wants you to know that.... it's ok."

2009-11-04T17:59:00.000-08:00

i added a new application in facebook this morning called "In God We Trust" and the quote of the day is that God wants me to know that ".... it's ok."

perhaps i am being too harsh on myself? or maybe i am just too idealistic that sometimes i might not be realistic in my expectations.

but since if God says that it's ok, who am i to argue?

dear God,
i am so so so confused.
help me to honor You in everything.
in Jesus' Name.

cranky bitch

2009-08-15T20:34:00.000-07:00

never talk to me before i have my first cup of coffee in the morning.

otherwise i will probably:

1. dun understand anything that you are saying at all
2. shake my head and keep saying NO to you even though whatever you say doesnt get into my head at all
3. scream at you if u keep continuing non-stop after the above

irrational craze :D

2009-08-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

i used to scream YUCKS! whenever my mum bought a certain issue of magazine because of the "limited edition" freebies that comes along with it.

items of these "collect-ables" includes slippers, mini pouches for your ladies' stuff, card holder, bags -- you name it! and my mum took the "limited edition collect-ables" really seriously too. you bet your last dollar she will just keep them nicely in their original packaging and hide them somewhere that we wont see and be tempted to help her rid of all those not very trendy stuffs cluttering her wardrobe.

however recently i got to realise that those cute and trendy japanese magazines comes with freebies too! and guess what? hee....

today i was really thinking hard whether to get that pair of gladiators wedges i've been eyeing on since forever. but i keep telling myself i need to save for wedding and blar blar blar. the wedges are honestly very affordable and comfy. but i kept thinking and thinking.

and while thinking i stepped into kinokuniya for a quick browse.

hee... after 5 mins, i stepped out of the stall with a magazine containing NOT 1 but 2 free CHER CHER bags!! and it cost exactly S$3.00 less than the pair of wedges that i've been coveting!

jeez! you must be thinking that fanny is officially out of her mind. it makes absolutely no sense at all.

hey but wait till you see me the next time with the new CHER CHER bag -- i will probably be gleaming with happiness (if next time happens within the next 3 days :P)

oh by the way i saw an ad this morning looking for professional freelance bloggers. maybe this will help me be more consistent with my blog posting :P :P

till then, it will be as-and-when-i-got-nothing-better-to-do-and-there-is-nothing-on-tv.

randomness

2009-08-11T07:22:00.000-07:00

1. Resolutions

a) i need to stop buying cheapo S$10 clothes and start buying some real proper office wear.
b) eat more healthily
c) start my day with a prayer and see the difference :)
d) get a grip on my super ultra nasty temper

2. UP - fantastic movie!! i love the storyline and the super cute grumpy old man + wife + talkative kid! cried during certain scenes *omg*

3. i wan to try the indoor rock climbing thingy at orchard central

4. want to try to jump down from a plane with parachute :) :)

5. cant wait to go on holiday but bf is super broke again...

6. dunno wads wrong with me lately -- super emo and no mood for anything :(

7. hope the rest of the week goes by briskly :D

wishing for a holiday...

2009-08-06T07:50:00.000-07:00

it will be nice if i can just take leave and nua for 3 days straight...

just do nothing but slack in a hotel room, ordering room service and watching too much tv...

:) :) :)

feeling not very pretty :(

2009-08-03T07:27:00.000-07:00

with my recent weight gain and pimple outbreak, i'm seriously feeling not very pretty.

omg... the tummy i have - i think it's even bigger than my colleague who is actually pregnant!!

last nite aaron told me that if i am not careful, i may end up looking like one of my aunties!

gosh...

gone were the days when my waist was the envy of all girls :(

so no more snacks in between meals from now on - i am officially declaring a war against the flab on my tummy!

by the way, i am proud to say that i had a yogurt shake for dinner instead of my usual rice and noodles :)

but then again supper now is OCK curry puff :P

oh well... i guess we have to compromise once in a while :D

new post ;P

2009-07-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

hmm... when was the last time i blogged?

not too sure, but i supposed that was a fairly distant memory.

many things had come and go since the last entry, but nothing too much i supposed :P

read through joanna's blog and realised that she had this entry that lists 25 things about herself.

i got quite amazed by it cos honestly i dont think i can quite determine so many things about myself - oops!

10th of july is coming and in exactly 1 year's time from that date it will be my BIG day.

unlike all the other bride-to-be around me, i seem extremely calm.

let me see, the list of things to do for the wedding....

wedding date - decided.
wedding venue - decided, pending booking.
wedding package - done.
wedding rings - chosen (not yet buy cos we're afraid we might put on weight again then the rings dont fit! hehe)
caterer - not too much of a headache i supposed. we were told that we can actually book about 2 months prior to the wedding date.
house - bought already :)

anything else i missed out? hmm....

so from now till 10th july 2010, i shall just sit back and relax and STOP shopping so that we can save enough to go to disneyland for our honeymoon :) :)

weakness

2009-04-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

all of us have our own weakness - myself included.

when i am stress, shop.
when i am tired, i grouch.
when i feel lost, i anyhow run and never bother to stop and ask for direction.
when things are too slow, i refuse to stop and wait.

but my greatest weakness is to look upon men, and not God.

i look upon people for inspiration on what to wear
i look upon people for their approval
i look upon people for encouragement
i look upon people for love
i look upon people for example to follow
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and the list goes on...

but in all these, there are always disappointments because human beings are not perfect.

it is only in Him that we can see perfection and never be disappointed nor heart broken.

in His time

2009-03-20T19:41:00.000-07:00

the Lord is my righteousness.
my hope is in the Lord, not in people.
He says blessed are the meek.

therefore i shall not pursue the matter further.

dear God, please grant me the strength, wisdom and grace to do so.

in Jesus' Name, amen

my hope is in You

2009-03-12T04:05:00.000-07:00

in Jesus' Name

Amen

listless - ness

2009-03-12T03:56:00.000-07:00

"a watched pot never boils.."

so does it mean that a boiling pot is never being watched?

as i ponder on this, i begin to wonder why on earth am i thinking about this. perhaps i am just too totally bored.

recently i have been rather listless. ever being the "livewire" and silly joker that laughs too loud and talk too much all the time, i seem to slip into a depressive kinda mood all of a sudden.

it's been a few weeks since i really laughed whole heartedly.

mindless at work, at home and even when i am shopping.

i wonder what's wrong?

at first we thought it was PMS - that time of the month. then we thought it was "that time of the year"...

as the weeks drag, even my guy got worried and start to imagine silly things.

my colleagues around me asked "what's wrong with you? you look like you are dying..."

frankly, if i know what is wrong with myself, i would have done things to rectify the situation.

the problem is, i am not too sure why i am feeling this way too.

so as usual, i am going to hide in my dreamland and sleep away this feeling till it is gone.

only God knows what's wrong and what's bothering me and i will let Him heal and rectify it :)

Festive Cheer

2008-12-07T06:30:00.000-08:00

for once in the history of my entire life, i have completed my x'mas shopping 3 weeks before x'mas!

can you believe it? today's the 7th of dec and i have officially completed all the necessary shopping for my family :D

2 whole weeks to devote to the planning of a party for the students.

of course i was grumbling about how hungry (it was over 8pm and i havent and we were waiting for our pizzas at nydc) tired (i was with the twins the whole afternoon) and broke (money spent on pressies and quite a bit stuck in the company's petty cash which i have yet to receive the claim) i was during dinner with my family today.

but nonetheless i am thankful for His blessings throughout the whole year and His grace that has saw me through so much.

merry x'mas!!

take me to the cross

2008-11-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

how can i be free from sin?
take me to the Cross of Jesus
from the guilt the power and pain
take me to the Cross of Jesus

there's no other way
no price that i can pay
simply to the Cross i cling
this is what i need this is what i plead
that His blood was shed for me

how can i know peace within
take me to the Cross of Jesus
following His suffering
take me to the Cross of Jesus

flowing from above
all forgiving love
from the Father heart to me
what a gift of grace
His own righteous
clothing me in purity

a hymn that was long forgotten, but makes so much sense to me suddenly as i was just singing to the Lord today...

Updates

2008-08-13T06:45:00.000-07:00

1. i love colours!! all the nice colours and pictures and patterns -- seeing them just makes me so damn happy!

2. i just realise that i am addicted to eating kimchee with rice.

3. next Thurs is my last day of work at my current work place :D

4. hot milo is my current favourite comfort food.

5. i love the smitten magazine -- the pictures and stuffs insides are all so pretty! and the drawings.... omg...

6. i've shopped more during this post GSS period than during GSS itself (life is full of irony isnt it?)

7. my bao bei xixi and qiqi are sooooo adorable! they know how to call me "bi bi jie jie" already!

8. hongkong disneyland is really quite enjoyable (nope that's not the only disneyland i've been to so far. i've been to tokyo disneyland before and it was overwhelming. hongkong disneyland is manageable :D)

9. the butter sugar thick toast and boulou you from toast box is addictive -- i've been eating them for weeks in a row :P

10. ..........

u start to blabber nonsenses like these when u stop blogging for too long

amazingly loved

2008-04-24T06:24:00.000-07:00

i was just walking to i cannt remember where today, and this really old song just came into my mind...

The way that He loves is as fair as the day
That blessed my way with love
The way that He loves is as soft a the breeze
Arresting the trees at night

So tender and precious is He
Contented with Jesus I’ll be
The way that He loves is so thrilling because
His love reaches even me

The way that He loves is as deep as the sea
His spirit shall be my stay
The way that He loves is as pure as a rose
Much sweeter He grows each day

His peace hovers near like a dove
I know there’s a heaven above
To Jesus I’ll cling, life’s a wonderful thing
Because of the way that He loves

i remember singing this many times in my 4 years of secondary school. devotion or chapel is when i learn most about live's lessons, where my life took a turn and changed for the better :)

omg omg.... so many of them are married already!

2008-04-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

it's been months... (hey nope, i think it's almost a year!) since i last do random browsing in facebook and friendster and guess what?! i really surprising discovery is that so many of my long time friends are already married! (oh yea, ermm i wasnt invited you see so i'm not aware... :P)

in a nutshell, i'm pleasently surprised :D

congratulations my dearest friends and buddies that still have time to read blogs in between your stressful working life, wife / husbands and ministry! ermm, no belated angpaos from me though! hehe

afraid

2008-04-10T05:58:00.000-07:00

i have a question here for all of you who read this. but first, let me provide some background information.

i used to be "fearless" - not afraid of anyone whether they are people of authority or physically they are giants -- i just dont give a damn as long as i know that i am right and i stand firm on my grounds of conviction. but after a really traumatising inccident that happened many many years ago, i realised that i've gone timid and afraid of everything. afraid of talking to strangers, afraid of people of authority... afraid when i'm just being told what is done incorrectly, afraid when someone raises their voice at me.

i'm aware of this silly fear that is crippling and i know that there are ways of overcoming it... but it's still here and i am so so so sick of it. i shivered when i was conducting an evaluation today which is the most ridiculous thing to do because i used to conduct numerous evaluations in my old job.

so here's the question: how do i overcome this?

a really holy answer will be to leave my past at the alter and allow Him to heal.

a really practical answer might be to go through the traumatising inccident that happened years ago, but this time, do not allow myself to be traumastised again.

the answer i want to hear may most probably be "just sleep, you are just tired. when you wake up in the morning, everything will be fine..."

if only when i wake up, i'll be in heaven....

seasons

2008-04-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

"there's a time and season for every activity under heaven..."

a time for laughter, a time for tears.
a time for thanksgiving, a time for cheer.
a time to tell someone you appreciate him, a time to let them know what's pissing you off.
a time to share, a time to just lend your ears....

in the different seasons' of my life, different lessons were taught and learnt.
grace, fear, love, joy, sorrows, faith, trust, seek, wait, obedience....

perhaps it's time for another lesson and another chapter.

dreadful for nothing

2008-04-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

i'm dreading some things here... it seems that the more i hate certain situations / things, the more God seems to put them into my way no matter how hard i try avoiding them.

got frightened by some people the other day at work -- yea, that's strange i know.. what's there to be afraid of? and ever since that day, i've been having scary nightmares at night and even in the afternoon when i tried taking naps during the weekend.

no matter what it is, i know He is with me and when He's here with me, no harm can befall me.

and for those who just like to abuse their position, i sincerely pray that His love will be shown someday to these people...

intellectual constipation

2008-03-29T21:22:00.001-07:00

some people will describe their period of nano writting as a condition known as "writer's block". i prefer to call mine a period of mental constipation cos seriously, when there's a block, i always believe there's a way to get ard it -- either by going around the entire block to get to the other side of to just simply climb over it. with the case of constipation, you know it's there but somehow you're just not able to release it.

why am i telling about this right now? because there's so so so much in my head but i have difficulties putting them into words or specifically just posting them after i type it out. somehow these posts just dont seems right....

but i'm still here :)

p.s. i love you very very much

2008-02-19T03:39:00.001-08:00

omg, finally watch the movie and was being disturbed by this group of young teenage girls giggling and talking so damn blardy loud in the theater. initially i dint want to watch it after reading comments given by the critics on it's reviews.... my else, after rotting like a pig at home thanks to 2 days of MC, i've decided to get a life and go out for some fresh air.

my sister went with me and after the movie, she seem lost and couldn't really understand the gest of the story.

well, i must say that the critics have given the entire movie an injustice by rating it really badly. sometimes it's really hard to perceive how a person might react in situations like those the characters in the movie is experiencing. overall, it's been a really ok movie experience, although parts of the plot in the movie deviates from the actual one from the book.

all in all, for a person to truely appreciate the book as well as the movie, this person must have been through true love and lost. in this case, i feel sad for those kids making weird remarks and giggling through the entire movie as this seem to show that they have yet to experience what true love and lost is like.

Choices

2008-02-17T22:54:00.000-08:00

There's a saying that life is filled with choices. Very often we are surrounded by situations whereby we need to make choices without having to think much. There are also some people who said that "there's never always a choice in life" -- meaning they dont really have much say in the decisions they made as it is always deteremined by the circumstances they're in.

Why am i being so melancholy again?

I always tell myself that I never like to be in situations whereby i am left without any choices. Be it in my work, relationship or family -- no matter what situation i am in, i will always find an alternative -- just in case i need an alternative choice to backup the "current plan".

But recently i've been thinking, maybe once in awhile if i really have got no choice, maybe life would be less complicated?

People in the olden days doesnt have much of a choice to decide who to marry as a lot of marriages are arranged by their parents through matchmakers. yet, we dont see divorce rates as scary as today's statistics even though couples today have the choice of choosing who they wanna spend the rest of their lives with.

perhaps when we do not have a choice, we will push ourselves to adapt and learn to like whatever or whoever we initially detest at first?

my dilema here is still on my job but it's got many lessons to be learnt here.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets you going. but i think for my case, when the going gets tough, i'll just hide beneath my blankie, hoping it's all but a bad dream....

notitleinmindforthisentry....

2008-01-30T06:16:00.000-08:00

it's been a really loonngg period of nil blogging. perhaps the nature of my current job doesnt allow me to think deep and i just work and work like a machine everyday. i'm tired. dear God pls help me to think straight!

yep i think i am not thinking very straight right now... feel like crying suddenly but there's nothing really to cry about. compared to months ago, i am actually in a much better situation in this current job. but wads the thing that's bothering me?

i hv a habit for praying and asking God for directions whenever i'm at a crossroad. am i at a cross-road now? well, kinda yes i think. i need a lot of wisdom and grace and peace to decide wad to do. and u know what, before i even remember that i need to pray, i've already blabbered nonsense and things that are not very impressive to my boss. but then if it's God's will, everything will fall into place.

this hymn suddenly comes to my mind as i type....

turn your eyes upon Jesus
look full in His wonderful face
and the things of this world
will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace....

p.s. i love u

2007-11-27T06:26:00.000-08:00

i was reading buibui's blog when i realised that one of my fav books is coming to the big screens soon! wow -- i was so excited!!

so the unusually enthu me went on to the website and saw the movie thriller and guess what?? tears started streaming down my face... yep it's true.

i am not a person who cries at the slightest things (i usually fake my cries if u realised -- hehe) but i remembered crying after reading the first page of the book!! gosh....

sometimes i wonder about my life and the fears that i carry. i wonder why i find it hard to fall in love with anyone, why i prefer to have friends rather than lovers, why i just cannt be in love with the person whom i know loves me so so much? i guess it's the fear of being vulnerable that makes me build a wall subconsciously that i love everyone around me -- i just dont do the falling in love business -- in this case if anything happens i can move on easily in life.

i've been feeling rather aimless recently. started on my new job last week. well, for once i can leave work on time and when i reach home, there's still sunlight and this is despite that now i take almost 1 hour to travel home! ok, i am not sure how to explain about the aimless part but life seems to be nothing but work for a long time and now suddenly i am not sure what to do besides work.

i'm so scared about commitement, i am so scared about falling in love...

"for God did not give us a spirit of fear but that of a spirit of boldness and of a sound mind..."

is this verse applicable here?

i need loads of prayers.

updates in my life

2007-11-27T05:09:00.000-08:00

1. i am no longer working at orchard! hehe
2. my hair is curly now
3. i dont have to wear anything formal in my new current job - yey!
4. .....
5. ........

hehehe... on a lighter note, here's my tentativwe x'mas wish list ( for those of u who feel like blessing me -- thank you! muaks!!!)
1. kinokuniya / borders book voucher
2. body shop hair brush ( i lost mine in my last bangkok trip *sob*)
3. loads of nice goodies (whatever that means to u...)
4. ....
5. .......
6. ..........
7. and finally WORLD PEACE =D

merry christmas!

la la la... (to the tune in your head right now)

2007-10-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

well, as u can see i am feeling super bo liao now =P

missing a lot of people in my life currently. sometimes i think i live in the past... but as i read my journals, i realised the past is not as nice as what i imagine it to be at times. guess i only remember the good times and not the bad? lol...

why am i crapping about nothing in particular here? not too sure why too...

my FIRST MC in 6 weeks!

2007-10-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

yep, that's a break through! for once i thought i can remain "MC-less" for maybe 2 months but then everybody ard me started falling sick and i think i just caught the germs =(

anyway after resting 2 days at home, i got so damn bored i started a facebook account! yep - please ADD me okie? and for goodness sake can someone please tell me how to go about doing all the cool stuffs i see in other people's profile? hehehe...

actually i am feeling a little depressed so not sure what else to write here. a colleague of mine offered to literally feed me spiritual food everyday by giving me a verse a day to ponder upon - sound kinda cool and i sure hope this will make me a happier and better person when i finally stop starving myself to death spiritually due to pure laziness.

ok i am really out of sorts today - not my usual style of writing. so i guess that's all for now... cheers =D

2007-10-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

Your Personality Profile

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.You tend to blend into your surroundings.Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

http://www.blogthings.com/worldsshortestpersonalitytest/">The World's Shortest Personality Test

The Wisdom of God

2007-10-04T06:05:00.000-07:00

"God's wisdom sometimes contradicts with man's knowledge..."

ConFusEd

2007-10-04T05:53:00.000-07:00

4 weeks into my new job and i am really confused. ok if you are my boss and ua re reading this - nope i am not confused abt the structure or whatsoever that you think that i might be confused with. to be honest i am confused whether i want to stay in this job.

yeah i'm being paid a lot for doing very little currently and the terms of my employment is really much better than my colleagues. to be honest i know i am truely blessed and my boss and colleagues seem to trust me enough to share me a lot of privileged information. but with all these information and observation i have made, i am not sure what i want. promotion and career advancement in the company is a great possibility as long as i do my job well. but the bottom line that i am concerned with is integrity and whether i am walking in the will of God?

to be frank i am a damn willful person and have chosen to willfully walk away from my Daddy's will since a long time ago. but in the context of a lot of other things i still ask God for a lot of wisdom, grace and favor and most importantly i want to stay in His will. contridicting? yep i sure am =P

a really old song came into my mind and i wrote out the lyrics on a piece of paper and my boss saw it this afternoon. am i being placed in this company for a purpose or is it time for me to leave when all things just dont seem right?

i need your prayers...

SoMeTHinG STuPid...

2007-09-26T19:17:00.001-07:00

"... then i go ans spoil it all by saying something stupid like i love you..."

okie if this song by Nicole Kidman and Robbie Williams is playing in your head as you read this - STOP!!! cos what i am about to write next is neither lovey dovey nor romantic -- it jus plain S.T.U.P.I.D.

so what exactly happened?

basically to cut the long story short, i smsed my boss by mistake saying that i am thinking of leaving the company when actually the sms was meant for a friend working in a bank that is currently hiring. shitty right? make it double shit because i said that i thought the company structure is a little shaky at the moment...

ok i know majority of you reading this will be thinking that this is so me cos i am always so blur and blar blar blar... but hey! i was running a fever ok (so my brain wasnt functioning - and yep, i dint take MC despite i was sick again =P) and my boss just happened to sms me right after my friend sms to let me know of the job vacancy so it's not totally my fault right?

and the response from my boss is as follows:

"you damn blur leh! just like a sotong... this kind of thing also can sms wrong person!!"

i love my longchamp bag!!!!

2007-09-20T06:26:00.000-07:00

i was telling my brother abt the philosophies of life - that all of us are chasing things, one after another and blar blar blar... but in actual fact, i just got my very very much coverted LONGCHAMPS!! yeay!!!

oh by the way for those who are wondering if i still have my job - yes i am still very much employed and i managed to let my boss know that i am really really not cut out for making business deals and negotiation. so he's agreed to let me just stick with customer service -- praise God!

so what's up next? i am not too sure myself but i know i really need sleep now so i'll jus sign off here...

yawn.... zzZZZzz zzzz....

when life gives u lemon...

2007-09-18T04:40:00.000-07:00

remember the common example cited by people when they are determining whether a person is a optimist or a pessimist? it usually starts with this usual question (ok i know all of you might hv already heard of this tonnes of times before but jus bear with me or simply skip to the next paragraph ok?) - if you see a glass that is filled with water to the middle, wad would be your response? response A: the glass is half full - you are an optimist. response B: the glass is half emplty - you are a pessimist.

i was at the toilet doing my business when this thought jus suddenly came upon me:

if the glass is filled with water to the middle, i'll jus
(1) drink it up if i am thirsty
(2) find some way to fill it up if i need a full glass of water for wadever reason
(3) pour the water away if it's dirty and i have no use for it
(4) jus leave it alone if it's none of my business!

well i guess this sums up to the great "contingency theory" model (yeah it's amazing but this is the only theory i remembered from all the 3 years i studied in uni) whereby it really depends on the situational factors when making a decision on the response to the respective situation.

ok, why am i sounding so "chim" and boring here? well i guess it's all thanks to my new job whereby i am soooooo damn bored and have nothing to do but to read management books most afternoons. my boss promised that i will be very busy once he settles everything and the manager returns from her leave (yeah, i asked for a switch in department and guess wad? once i decided to switch, the manager went on MC!!! omg.... anyways, my boss promised that i will be SUPER BUSY once the manager returns tomorrow - so today will be my last day to dream and think of stupid things in the office when i read too much management books - hehehee

so when life gives you lemon, my response is as follows:
(1) make lemonade (if everyone is thristy and there's an opportunity for me to exchange it for a perceived return)
(2) keep the lemon in the fridge till i need it for something else (maybe to squeeze on my fish and chips??)
(3) and if all i have is a lemon, i will definately try to make sure i keep the seeds and try to grow them after wadever i have done with my lemon.

yep, i am surely not behaving like myself today....

i need a new job

2007-09-15T07:49:00.000-07:00

yep, u heard that - loud and clear. i'm going to tender my resignation soon (preferbly on Monday I hope) because i honestly think that i am not suitable working for this company. so in view that i will be jobless again - PLEASE!!!! help me keep a lookout for jobs ok? in the meantime i'll jus bump around and start depositing my CV again....

unknown territory

2007-09-13T04:57:00.000-07:00

omg, 6 days into this new job and my boss threw me a bomb - he wants me to expand and grow the existing portfolio for his company. this is NOT what i have signed up for when i accepted the offer!! omg omg omg.... can u sense that i am freaking out now?

by the way, the ground was shaking so badly today this morning it's almost like the buidling was swaying!!

omgomgomg....

this is bad... i am so freaked out now. i'm supposed to be available for meeting with one of our potential partners on sat morning (i wasnt supposed to work on sats!!) and there's gonna be another major meeting with a client on monday afternoon. darn.... what should i wear for both these meetings? and what am i supposed to do or say in these meetings with this scary people??

omgomgomg....

give thanks

2007-09-10T05:29:00.000-07:00

in all things give thanks to God...

yep! i was about to complain a whole load of things about how terrible my day went cos everything seems to just go the wrong way today, but as i was pondering about the contents which i was going to type in this blog, somehow it dawn upon me that no matter how terribly wrong the things seem to be - in the end all the issues got resolved.

if it's not by the grace of God i think i would have burst into tears by 1030am this morning...

so i think my God is still so good, so sweet, so loving and so kind.

this song comes into me right now at this instance as i type so i think i'm jus gonna finish with it (sorrie if the lyrics sound weird but hey! i've been churchless for years and it's a miracle i still remember christian song lyrics ok?? kekeke)

Chorus:

Even when i've strayed away
His love has sought me out and found me
He satisfy, He satisfy
He satisfy my desires
Great is the measure of out Father's love

Think about His love
Think about His goodness
Think about His grace
That brought us through

For as high as the heavens above
So great is the measure of our Father's love
Great is the measure of our Father's love

How can i forget His love?
How can i forget His mercy?
He satisfy, He satisfy
He satisfy my desires
Great is the measure of our Father's love

nope, not trying to be holly polly again ~ jus wanna share with you guys out there my thoughts =)

cya soon!

TAGGED!!

2007-09-05T05:20:00.000-07:00

i got tagged by bui - gotta write 30 things about myself...

30 things? i dun even know more then 5 things about myself - LOL!!

1. i love to eat
2. i love to sleep
3. i love to sing and irritate people
4. .......
5. .......

CLUELESS!

Din Tai Fung

2007-09-02T21:44:00.000-07:00

Hurray! it's that time of the month again - PAYDAY!! and when it comes to pay day, the usual tradition over at my old company is to have a yummy hearty meal at Din Tai Fung *wink*wink*

Bui (a fellow colleague cum superior cum good friend of mine in my ex company) once asked why pay day must go Din Tai Fung eat? actually i am not too sure about that myself too. But it seems like that's the tradition. ask around pay day in my ex department and everyone will say YES to Din Tai Fung except for Nana - she got forced my us to go there once and she got so absolutely traumatised by it cos there's no burgers and fries there (Nana's a burgers and fries person) and all of us tried to feed her food that she usually dont take.

As i am typing this, i am so craving for one of our usual monthly lunch at Din Tai Fung.... Have been dreaming about the fried rice and xiao long bao for the last couple of days... geee... i'm going crazy here. Can someone sense that i am going through a ex-colleague syndrom phrase now?? LOL

speaking of which why havent i paid a visit after my holiday to bangkok? cos it's been raining everyday when i wake up and i look horrible due to my still foul mood - okay that's not a very good excuse but i will try to get my butt out of my house soon cos a little fresh air never hurts and it brings out the sunshine in me.

ROMANTIC fool

2007-09-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

tell me how to be a romantic fool and how to fall in love truely manly deeply

crappy blog entry

2007-09-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

as the title suggests, this entry's gonna be nothing but crap. so if you are not in mood for any of my crap, please just close this page and go do other things so that you wont get annoyed by the crappiness that is about to follow...

if you are still reading this, heyh! you're damn daring man! (either that or you havent meet me in person before - hahahaha)

so what's up with me recently?

firstly, i am annoying everyone around me cos i havent started my job and i am basically rotting and sleeping my time away, trying to dream of a hunky prince charming (hopefully daniel or hugh *longing sincere eyes* *sigh*)

secondly i am watching a lot of movies because i am scared that once i start work, i wont have time for movies again! yep i used to watch 2 to 3 movies a week depending on whats showing on screen but for the past year, i was either too sick or too tired so there's so many films i missed. i am terrified that i'll be back to square one this coming wed once i start work....

thirdly - i am still in my especially foul mood - which explains why i am avoiding meeting anyone because when i am in a foul mood i look more ugly then usual.

sigh.. with this sort of writing i can never make it to become a writer... my head is killing my with a never ending mirgrane... i think i am having permanent head damage here....

HAIRSPRAY

2007-08-29T07:01:00.000-07:00

wow!! if you guys and gals out there love music, dance, colours and most importantly the 60s era - this movie is for you!

yeah, i'm still around...

2007-08-28T22:21:00.000-07:00

but i am in such a foul mood, i am not sure what i should write in my bloggie. reason for my foul mood? well... let's just say that i am not the most patient and understanding person in this universe and sometimes when i get pissed one time too many, i have the tendency to rage with anger.

anger in itself is nothing wrong. even God gets angry at times. but since young somebody wise told me that in my anger i should not "sin". well this is a challenge cos what consitutes as a "sin" varies in a very vast spectrum. even gossip (aka talking behind one's back) is considered as a sin.

okay, enough holy polly talk here.

lemme try to be less tensed and more relaxed here....

breath in.... breath out.... breath in.... breath out....

i am definately going to take up music lessons or art classes when i settle into my new job....

Blog Annoucement

2007-08-20T06:13:00.001-07:00

Hiyah dearest faithful reader of my blog, this is to inform you that I will be resting for a little while and the next entry will be posted only around the end of August. If by September you still dont see me ard, pls do me a favor - SMS ME TO REMIND ME ABOUT MY BLOG!!! cos most probably with such a short attention span, I might have totally forgotten about this.

Cheers for now!

Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow??

2007-08-15T19:46:00.000-07:00

yeah my dear blog readers.... this is a very important question inspired by one of my favourite oldies -- will you still love me tomorrow??

it's a very important question since now i am really counting down to my last day of work at this current job - 5 more days to be exact.

i have been humming this song and irritating the hell out of my colleagues at work, asking them "will anot" after i sing out the last part. my manager got so pissed, she challenge me to sing it on my last day on a plattform for the whole office!!! hahaa... but com'on - this is not the firsdt day you know me right?? i am demanding in the area of love, care and attention - so dont be so stingy in your affirmation to me 'kay?? hahaha...

so here goes the song (to those whom i have yet to sing to....)

words and music by Gerry Goffin and Carole King
Recorded by The Shirelles in 1961
Also recorded by The Four Seasons (1968), Dave Mason (1978), and Carole King (1971, "Tapestry")

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Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sighs?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun?

I'd like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now, and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

TOY BOY

2007-08-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

Ad for a TOY BOY

Job Responsibilities:

To keep me happy and entertained when I am bored and sick of the storybook land -- preferably beefy and hunky (like Dan Craig!) with a brooding look and eyes that are deep in thoughts. Must be willing to sacrifice your credit card and freedom to drool at other girls. Must also be able to withstand all my nonsense and bossy tantrums.

Working Hours:

To be standby on duty 24/7 - 365 days in a year. If there's 366 days in that particular year you will get one day off.

Perks and Benefits:

The company of a highly irritable and not always cute lady who loves hamsters on top of all the other things already listed in this blog profile.

Suitable candidate please email your CV to my eatsleepsingsong@yahoo.com

Can you sense that I am officially on the verge of going nuts?? =P

my Dreamz and Ambitions

2007-08-13T06:24:00.001-07:00

my Dreamz:

1. To marry Daniel Craig or Hugh Grant (yeah, I know Hugh's a jerk - but he's a cute jerk!)
2. To live in storybook land forever and ever!
3. To become a NDP Parade Commander (Don't you dare laugh at this - it's realistic enough ok?)
4. To become a professional musician
5. To own a puppy and a kitty and live in a peaceful country side (preferably just 30mins away from the city)

my Ambitions:
1. To become a professional musician
2. To become Mrs Craig or Mrs Grant
3. To be a free lance writer
4. To join the army
5. To be a sought after personal shopper

YeaH!!

3 Cheers for my dreamz and ambitions!!! hahahaha...

damn... I must be stressed and loosing my mind here =P

In Honour Of My Buddy...

2007-08-10T19:28:00.000-07:00

You might be asking why am I back after less then 1 week in storybook land?
That is because my buddy came and read my bloggie last night and complaint that there's no recent updates! So this is for you bud -- you know who you are and stop pretending that you dont care what I do or say cos I know you care! Hehe...

So what have I been up to recently? Well it's mostly work and sleep and reading... Nothing much. What happened to singing and eating?? Well did I mention that my true love is books then it's followed by eating, sleeping, and singing songs?

Gosh... This entry is getting lammer by the nano second as I typed.

Oh yah, my dear buddy also mentioned that my bloggie looks pathetically picture-less. So can anyone PLEASE teach me how to insert nice pictures here and there to beautify my blog so that the next time he sees it he wont fall asleep half way through reading it? damn... I need real detailed instructions cos i am rather dim when it comes to computer stuffs. heck, my friendster account and msn account was set up by my dear brother who thought that i needed a life outside storybook land so i guess that about it sums it all up.

so an advanced thank you to those of you who will tell me how to upload nice pretty pictures, music etc into my bloggie =)

cya all soon!

WARNING

2007-08-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

yep i am officially giving a warning here - and a damn serious one that I MIGHT NOT BE UPDATING THIS BLOG AS OFTEN AS BEFORE -- yeah you heard it.

nope, it's not because i have gotten tired of this 3 min passion or because my job is making me so tired i am just sick of typing more stuffs into the laptop when i get home. the reason for this is because as a book reading freak, i found a new author whose writing really appreals to me and i am going to try and finish all her entired collection of books to date =) and i am pretty damn happy and contented to hide in my little room and just drift into whatever adventure (or misadventrure) these books will bring me to =)

******* the above was typed yesterday night.... why dint i post it?? cos my stupid laptop suddenly blacked out on me and i couldnt get to retrive this post till now.. darn i am not going to waste my effort re-typing.... why am i balbbering about this anyway when i should be in my story book land??? hehehe....**************

happy Monday!

2007-08-05T17:54:00.000-07:00

hello to my dear fellow blog readers, i'm back after 1 week of no blog updates!! hehe...
the reason for my "disappearance"? actually for the past 1 week i did write some stuffs on the bloggie - i just never got to complete them and actually post them cos after typing for a minute or 2, i got distracted. one fellow workmate cum friend of mine - Nana, commented that i my attention span sucks. yep, i agree with that - proudly too and i do admit that since young i have learnt to cope and multi-task, at the same time paying attention listening to the main area of concern which i should be giving my 100% attention to.

ok, why am i talking about my limited attention span here when my aim today is to cheer the blues out of all my fellow blog readers?? hehhee... oops! sorry for the side track =P

well Monday, the start of a fresh new week. let's try not to be gloom and let's all be postitive yeah?? smile smile smile =)

a smile brings cheer to those around you but at the same time when you smile, others will smile back too - either out of politeness or they are genuinely amuse at you and in their brain they will be thinking "damn funny, what's there to smile about"? but then they will still show their silly grin on their faces and then you will be happy inside too when you see the smiling faces around you.

well i think that's all for today as that's about all my attention will allow me to type...

remember to SMILE =)

This song makes a lot of sense to me...

2007-07-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

Ray Boltz
People Need The Lord

Everyday they pass me by,
I can see it in their eye;
Empty people filled with care,
Headed who knows where.

On they go through private pain,
Living fear to fear;
Laughter hides the silent cries
Only Jesus hears.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
At the end of broken dreams,
He's the open door.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
When will we realize
People need the Lord.

We are called to take His light
To a world where wrong is right;
What could be too great a cost
For sharing life with one who's lost?

Through His love our hearts can feel
All the grief they bear;
They must hear the Words of Life
Only we can share.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
At the end of broken dreams,
He's the open door.

People need the Lord,
People need the Lord;
When will we realize
That we must give our lives,
For people need the Lord.
People need the Lord.

workoholic annoynomous

2007-07-26T18:21:00.000-07:00

yep, this is a new support group which i will be starting soon after my last day in my current job =) for those of you whom i havent been in contact with for very long and who just happened to be reading this blog of mine -- yep, i will be leaving this current job (which i truely and honestly love) soon and hopefully after which i will have more time to devote myself in this "workoholic annoynomous" group.

so what exactly inspired this new aspiration??

if you dont have a habit of reading comments posted by people, you may wanna relook at the comment posted in the previous blog entry by my beloved buibui.

when i was a kid, i used to think my aunties work crazy hours -- just because they never leave their offices exactly at 5pm (or 6pm after the introduction of 5 day work week). seriously, i always think that this sort of things are avoidable and all undone work can wait till the next morning -- all until i entered the work force. then me too, begin to work overtime all the time.... but then again, mine NEVER exceeds past 10pm cos gnerally my brain cease to function after 8pm and all i can think of is drifting into my dreamland where i can be anyone i wanna be (but that's another totally different story which i will tell you people out there another day).

my point is this: if you are not an accountant or a auditor, you are not supposed to work into the wee hours of the night! but then many of you out there will seriously protest as i know so many of you guys and gals so often work till past mid-night and have to dig into your own pockets to pay for the cab-fare that will bring you home for a little nap before you have to report back to work at the same time the following morning...

so those of you out there who are interested to join this WORKOHOLIC ANNOYNOMOuS support group, just leave your comments and your numbers or email and i will get back to you people once i have the time (between my current job and the next new one that is coming) i will organise some sort of meeting or outing that we all can sit down and bitch about how much our worklife has reduced us to this current state =) but this is provided that all of you out there is not putting in extra hours in your supposed-to-be-8-hours-a-day work day.

somebody commented my blog is too long...

2007-07-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

so as a generallyreceptiveofconsttructivefeedback sort of person, i am going to try to keep my blogs as short so possible from now onwards.. =)

but wait, wont that defeat the purpose of using this blog as an outlet for venting my frustration?? gosh.. i am confused by myself again!

so wad now?? i guess this is rather long for a supposedtobeshort post so i am gonna stop here just for today...

OKie... So i am still a bit blur -- but wads wrong with that??

2007-07-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

just in case you are wondering what blunder i made this time, and if you dun have the habit of reading blogs in a chronological manner, then let me enlighten you with this -- i forgot to post my last entry after i typed and i just realised it?? actually to be frank if i dun mention this i doubt anyone will notice that but heck! honestly i dont know what on earth i am typing now....

anyway, blogs are supposed to be an outlet for the blogger to vent whatever emotions that is in his or her mind right?? so i dont really care what i am typing now -- just random words that pop out of my head.

in times like this i like to get philosophical. yep, maybe i should have done a major in philosophy instead of some common business major that the whole world already has?? hmm.. this is a fanastic idea. i will go a goggle search for some online philosophy degree course that has zero entry requirement =)

or maybe i should just sleep and in my dreams i can be anyone i want without any effort...

i bought black leggings!!

2007-07-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

yep, after much hesitation, i finally got a pair of black leggings from forever21 and it cost only SGD13.00! i dint even try on it, just took and went straight to the cashier to pay for it. but after that when i got home, i tried it on and went around my house like an idiot asking everyone "nice anot??"..

YES! I'm BACK for the third entry of this pathetic blog....

2007-07-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

hello to all, i'm back!

what's the reason? first of all, when i commit to something, i'll try to not give it up so soon. even though i might complain and complain till the cows come home, finished their dinner and try to jump over the moon while everyone's asleep -- com'on, it's just COMPLAIN. and complaining doesnt mean i will give up right??

anyway back to the main issue of today.

today i went to a spree site and saw this super coverted bag that the entire world is crazy about and guess what?? yep, i went crazy over it too! when the news report regarding the maddness of this bag came out one day in the newspaper, i was at a mac cafe happily drinking my fluffy, contented with whatever bag i was carrying. and even after reading the article about this crazy phenomina, i though the whole world was nuts to be so crazy about this common looking 5 pound bag. infact, the basic concept of the design of this bag is similar to that of some T shirts i got in bugis village many years ago -- a fashionista item using catchy words or slogan.

but as the days past, as i browse through the papers each day and as more and more news about this bag surfaced the in-between-pages of our local papers, subconsciously i begin to long for a piece of it, thinking how nice it will be to have a rare piece of fashion item which i can show off to the entire orchard road for perhaps 30 days before the craze dies down and everygirl in singapore owns a replica of it??

so the question is, am i getting this bag anot??!!

seriously, i feel a little dumb to get it as the replica is selling for double the price of the authentic item -- what a joke!(oops, did i mention the spree item was supposed to be non-authentic aka FAKE?) so i told myself i am going to pray real hard and go to church tomorrow and hopefully, someone will bless me with a piece of the "real" one, without me having to beg for it or worse still - go for the fake.

now i am begining to understand why people blog..

2007-07-18T12:03:00.000-07:00

It's 3.03am sg time. What am I doing now in the middle of the night?? To be honest I cannt sleep and I am having a bitch of a headache. There are so many things flying around in my mind, I dont even know where to start. In times like this when you go online in MSN there is practically no one to talk to, nothing else to do except to look through the shopping sites and when you are finally done and bored to death ( and ironically more awake then ever!), people write BLOGS! and that is what i am doing now. damn it... i wont even bother about my puncuation -- it's not like some english teacher will look through and penalise my mistakes right?? hahaha...

i think i am desperately in need of a break. cannt wait for my holidays to come. wish it's here right now and i am in the middle of some isolated beach in a air-conditioned resort typing this... but then if i am in that situation, i will be relaxed enough to sleep and not be cursed with this stupid irritating headache that is more stubborn then the stain i got on my new top.

2007-07-17T04:46:00.000-07:00

So what exactly inspired me to start this blog?? I am not too sure myself either. To be frank I am a really private person and not used to sharing my real thoughts and feelings with others. But I think sometimes we all need an outlet to vent our frustrations and indeed starting a blog might help. It's kinda like a e-journal or e-diary -- just that this one is none private.

So what now??

I guess stay tunned for more updates on my personnal wadever (if you are really so free and got nothing better to do! =P)